Tomorrow (or today, whenever you read this) we're going on a family day trip to Jasper with Raimund's family. We discussed doing this a few weeks ago, and we've all been looking forward to it since.
This trip will be both amazing, and bittersweet. A few weeks ago we discovered that Raimund's mother has inoperable cancer. She battled breast cancer a few years ago and we thought she defeated it, but the cancer has since spread to a point where not much can be done.
Raimund's mother wants to see the mountains one last time, so we're all going to be there with her. She says one last time and I can't help but think "don't say that...you never know." There could be a chance the chemo will help. We can only hope.
It seems like that past couple years I've had to deal with death more and more. Just a few weeks ago we had a funeral for my great uncle who was only recently diagnosed with lung cancer in January...but I'll leave that for another blog post.
I guess what I'm getting at is that you can never predict the future, and to a degree that scares the shit out of me. We're not guaranteed to be here tomorrow, let alone five minutes from now. Thinking like that always makes my mind wander. I start to question our existence and why the hell we're even here, but then I'm brought back into the moment, being here with Ben while he plays with rocket ships, and I'm just grateful for this time to be with the ones I love.
Many photos will be taken tomorrow, and reminiscing among Raimund's family. Let's hope for good weather.
~E
5 comments:
Make it amazing! I hope it's a positive and happy day. xoxo
I hope you have a good journey, sweets, sending love always. ♥
I wish you guys the best on your trip and definitely make it special. I think about death and all that a lot too and it's scary and I find myself questioning a lot. I try to enjoy my time here as much as I can, though.
Unfortunately, it's true. The older we get, the more we experience death around us. My husband's father passed away suddenly during the year before we got married, and it's STILL a very very raw nerve on my in-laws side, over 4 years later. Hang in there.
Life is precious and can be gone in an instant. I've just written a similar post. I went home to Wales last week to find out that my best friend's boyfriend had been killed in a car accident. Death sucks. Life is awesome and we need to make every second count! xx
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